That's me trying.

A friend once told me,
"I dont think you fit well in that environment. You're not meant for that"
Well, not those exact words but it sums up in that way.
I didnt deny that fact but i didnt really agreed to that either.
But somehow, when i started pondering on that verbal statement.
It hit me.
Maybe i was not meant for that.
It annoys me, deeply and painfully.
It has been 2 years, almost 3 now.
And yet I am still complaining.
I am still trying to adapt well to the ballgame.
But hell,
i just dont get how their mind works.
Their mentality.
I guess its part of growing up.
But come on,
all those childish brawls and fracases,
those silly,moronic, irrational,( i could go on with all the adjectives all night)
statement and conversation of theirs.
I know its their rights but
I am trying to not go down the hill with that.
I was lost back then and i managed to surpass that
eventhough there were moments when I wish i wouldnt know them at all.
And now, I guess i should just focus on myself and get this over with asap.

Maybe its the time of the month.
Maybe its the hormones rising.
Maybe i am the problem, the virus.
But
Maybe i just missed my best friends a lot.
and maybe I wish they were with me together like high school
But we all grow up eventually.
I just have to get used to it.
It aint that hard, right?