Remorseful

I know.
I am aware.
I am fully familiar with the consequences.
Its not good to bad-mouth others.
I should refrain from Ghibah.
But,
sigh this is really really really tough.
Its really tough.
Its like a child being refused milk.
Okay thats really not a good analogy.
But the point is,
its tough.


Why the sudden post?
Its not as if im aware of the Islamic rulings
just today right?
But someone gave me a reminder.
Well it wasnt really a someone.
But rather I came across it laa.
I am truly sorry for the things I have said about you
behind your back.
The picture of you laying on the bed with
wires intact to you makes me really sad.
Its not as if im close to you.
Its not as if we are even friends.
Its not as if you meant something to me.
Its just that you had something to do with me before this.
And those words that you wrote,
those links you posted,
it triggers me right to the heart.
I am sorry for the words i have said.
The slanders i have been slandering.
The rumors that i believed.
I hope you will forgive me. :/

I guess its part of being a human.
I make mistakes.
I tend to talk about others.
And so do you.
But thanks for the reminder,
i shall lessen that now.
InsyaAllah with great will,
i will try.
Damn this is tough. I need guidance. :/