Of People Like You

We move on. 

We dont just get stuck in the past in our high school moments and high school dramas with 

our high school friends.

We move on. 

We become more mature and wiser.

We expand our social networks.

We look at things differently in another perspective.

We dont get stuck in the past.

Unless you chose that way.

And honestly for me,

if you do, you are at all not at par with me.

Cause i have gotten enough of your childishness. 

Its about time you see the reality of life.

A Tinge of Sadness to Embark On

It's already 2012. How time passes so fast. In a blink of an eye, I'm already 21 years old. Wow. So many stories to tell, so many incidents have happened. Laughter and tears along the way accompanying me throughout the whole journey. Four months of studying gone just like that and yet so many things have happened. And now without realizing it, I'm about to embark into another whole new journey in three weeks time. Sigh. How I wish though that I could turn back time and erase certain memories and incidents that I wish I wouldn't need to encounter. But that is life. It's never sweet cotton candy like. Once in awhile there is the tinge of sourness in your tongue. History cannot be erase but you can learn from the mistakes and be a better person. I am 21 years old and I need to behave like one. Maybe not physically,mentally true indeed. For I believe every thing that has happened is for a reason and only Allah knows why. Cause He will not let us be burden with more than what we can bear. Towards a better life, insyaAllah. (:

Dear God 

You made it possible 

When facing obstacles .

In the midst of trying to agree to disagree

“There is no such thing as complete freedom in the name of human rights because freedom of expression also comes with conditions."

Its an utter disappointment for me when I read the statement made by PKR's communication director Nik Nazmi. His view against  PPSMI to my astonishment amuses me much to the extent many regarded him as following the footsteps of fellows UMNO's. Such a despair to know such a brilliant person like him to have the opposing view. Unless of course, if this came from the winning party, its a norm to know their contention is what more but to uphold Bahasa Malaysia as the national language. (as if its a very huge deal)

English is the most common language used in modern sciences and mathematics. Abolishing the PPSMI is a very grave mistake ever made. Eventhough research done has shown that Malaysia has dropped significantly after the implementation of the PPSMI, one must look beyond the surface. Just because the rural parts of the country are unable to progress and excel well with English as the medium in learning Science and Maths, it is not an excuse to revert back to the former education style of teaching. Reverting this implementation which has been executed for almost 9years will be a setback for generations to come. 

He also contended that even the English speaking world is becoming more open to the teaching of "second language" such as Chinese,French or even the Quranic language. One should be very well-aware that Bahasa Malaysia no longer serves as a lingua franca in this modern world. It used to. Used. With developments increasing day by day with researches being conducted almost entirely in English, why should we be left behind just to uphold the achievements made in the past by our founding fathers in the Constitution?  

Bahasa Malaysia can be promoted in other ways and means through literacy for example. It is inarguable that Malay literacy is amazing and has been written with language that is set to mindblown the readers. But to say that it is through Bahasa Malaysia that everyone would be able to understand the subject matter in learning Science and Maths in an understatement, I see parents sending their kids for tuition to learn Bahasa Malaysia only for the main purpose of ace-ing the subject during exam. I have friends who abandoned Bahasa Malaysia right after SPM. How is then by having Bahasa Malaysia as the medium in learning Science and Maths will help to promote the language?

If its main purpose indirectly is to help the Malays ,as its a well-known fact that most Malays are the ones whom are unable to converse in English well to be compared to other races, then by abolishing PPSMI , it is the Malays who are going to suffer eventually. How? I am certainly not here to downgrade my fellow race but look at Indians, they have the capability to pick up the English language easily from friends or family. Or the Chinese whom do not fare too badly either, they will somehow acquire the language easily either through language centres or studying overseas. But what about the Malays?It is an unfortunate sight that it will the Malays who will have the difficulty in acquiring fluency in the language as they prefer to use their mother-tongue at just about everywhere. Again, im stressing that i am not trying to downgrade my own fellow race. They are indeed at last my very own race. Of course it is very hard initially but look at it in the long run, i am pretty sure it will serve us well in the near future. No offense intended. 

As much as im aware of the statement made by Prof Azizi Bari with regards to this issue, what i do not understand is how the implementation of PPSMI is going against Article 152 of the Federal Consti. Well I guess thats a hint  for me to attend more often of his Consti lectures. :D

As how my pencil has its own stand, i too have my reasons to stand on my own grounds. With the politicians obfuscating the matter, it is at the end of the day goes down to the person's ability to understand the concept of science & maths, regardless of the language in which it is taught. I am a Malay and im able to converse in both Malay and English even when i was taught in English when learning Maths and Science. I do not question the importance of English. There is no denying that it is the international language and should be pursued seriously by all.

If there's a will, there is always a way. As much as Tun Mahathir had made many mistakes during his time, the implementation of PPSMI is a very good move. As quoted by him, "In this age of science and technology, if you dont progress in science, you cannot make any progress". Its not just about benefiting this group of students or that group of students. Its more than that. Its about benefiting the nation and national progress.

But how can a person like me would be able to make a difference in this. The decision has been made regardless PAGE's initiative to make a stand on this. Just another pressing matter to be gulped down.

Hopefully the next GE would be able to make a difference in this even I doubt it will.

When life gives you lemons, you turn it into lemonade.

But lemonades aren't always that pleasant.

The sourness differs from everyone's taste buds. 

If you're lucky, you get the good ones. If you're not, you get the bad ones.

Its just on how you handle and correct the situation.

Put more sugar, it will somehow tastes even better

Put less sugar, you'll have the crinkled, crumpled face where you eyebrows starts to furrow.

Like how lemonade is my current situation,

that is how i want sugar for my motivation.

Cause sometimes it only takes sugar to make the heart at ease.

So , any sugar available anyone?

When Everything is Not Just About You.

So many things to say yet the mouth is still keeping mum about it.

So many things to write yet the mental is having a breakdown.

So many things to do yet the time keeps running away.

I may be harsh but im sensitive too.

And words of yours might just trigger that sensitive part of mine.

But the mouth still is keeping mum about it.

And the hands are unable to write about it.

Yet there is nothing I can do about it.

Cause it might just ruined everything.

And all I can do is just breathe and forget about it.

We Are The Soldiers to Our General

                   


              Kita ini semua umpama askar yang diutuskan menjalankan tugas rasmi. Setiap kita diberi arahan untuk melaksanakan tugas oleh jeneral agung. Apabila selesai tugas kita, sudah tentu kita perlu pulang. Setiap bayi yang lahir menerima watikah melaksanakan tugas sebagai tentera Allah. Di medan dunia inilah kita belajar dan terus belajar, medan ini kita bertempur dgn nafsu, di medan ini kita berusaha membantu orang lain. Dan bayi itu apabila telah selesai tugasnya sama ada ketika kecil atau tua tetap akan pergi untuk diganti tentera yang lain pula.

                Begitulah peralihan semenjak zaman Adam. Semua kita datang dengan tugas, untuk mengenali Tuhan dan untuk mencari bekal. Insya Allah, Ali telah pun pulang ke kampung asalnya negeri syurga dan kita semua bakal pulang juga. Bukan kah kita semua merindui kampung halaman kita juga. Allah pasti tidak sia-siakan perasaan rindu kita kepada kekasih dan kepada kampung asal kita, kampung datuk kita Adam. Di sana semua kekasih akan dihimpunkan. Mudah-mudahan kita berkumpul bersama Baginda SAW. 




I found this beautiful article
from a blog in which i have been a fan ever since,
and the content?
Really caught my eye and especially my heart.
May this Ramadhan will make me a better Muslimah.
InsyaAllah. (:

Salam Ramadhan Al-Mubarak

to all brothers and sisters.

May Allah bless you always. (:

That's me trying.

A friend once told me,
"I dont think you fit well in that environment. You're not meant for that"
Well, not those exact words but it sums up in that way.
I didnt deny that fact but i didnt really agreed to that either.
But somehow, when i started pondering on that verbal statement.
It hit me.
Maybe i was not meant for that.
It annoys me, deeply and painfully.
It has been 2 years, almost 3 now.
And yet I am still complaining.
I am still trying to adapt well to the ballgame.
But hell,
i just dont get how their mind works.
Their mentality.
I guess its part of growing up.
But come on,
all those childish brawls and fracases,
those silly,moronic, irrational,( i could go on with all the adjectives all night)
statement and conversation of theirs.
I know its their rights but
I am trying to not go down the hill with that.
I was lost back then and i managed to surpass that
eventhough there were moments when I wish i wouldnt know them at all.
And now, I guess i should just focus on myself and get this over with asap.

Maybe its the time of the month.
Maybe its the hormones rising.
Maybe i am the problem, the virus.
But
Maybe i just missed my best friends a lot.
and maybe I wish they were with me together like high school
But we all grow up eventually.
I just have to get used to it.
It aint that hard, right?

Grey's to the Anatomy

Recently, I have been missing MerDer moments.
Hence, i visited my past.

From season 1 up till now.
GA has been a part of me since its first season
aired in 2005 when I was in form 2.
And ever since, i have been following Grey's up till now.

I grew up with Grey's literally.
No joke.

(You might have seen him in the lastest Transformers movie acting as the bad guy bt still hot)

And the first time I saw GA,
i fell in love with Derek Christopher Shepherd.
aka McDreamy.
I fell hard for him.
Real hard. Seriously.
Hence, as you can see, every link i have is all
in honour of him.
naimcdreamy.

Its not just about the hot mcsteamy guys or the mclove.
Its not about those medical knowledge ive learnt a lot (just by watching GA)
Its not just about the interesting story line.
Its something more than that.
GA has memorable quotes that relates to my life indirectly.
Future advises and motivations.
Melancholic but awesome soundtracks.
No one can ever understand why I would love GA so much.
Why it has and will always be my no.1 tv series.
Why no other tv series might ever take its position.
Come what may,
GA will always be no.1
and for the record,
i will love to visit Seattle one day.

Its just more than a medical tv series.
Its like the aorta distributing oxygen to the arteries.
Like the warehouse for the poop.
Its the blood to the heart.